Of the sun star rising, armoring the mountains and the sea alike in armours as if they were knights so glorious, they would rescue all from the night.

Of the brave men’s eyes full of valour and the valour dripping out so softly from their veins that there are love songs being written about them.

Of the leaves shedding themselves in their sweet sacrifice when the autumn comes whispering and of the men dancing around the bonfire coated evening, roasting their own hearts, decorating their plates for someone else’s belly.

Look at all my red,
Like roses growing out of the corner of my eyes,
Like sunlight resting on the lips and on the freckled cheeks, my brown earth-like body.
Like a kiss of fire on my collarbones when my beloved would make love with my neck.
Folds of my palms and my wrists, proof that someone held on to them so tightly I forgot that I was ever alone.

I would smack you red if you ever became so much of a monster who would try to ruin this pretty red dress.


The Sea And The Sunset: A Travel Story

Mobor – Benaulim – Velsao

We drove towards the south in an incapable bus full of capable people.
A few men boasting of their travels as if this old bus has been their companion for way too long, some silent women who are far more concerned of the heat, three children- such pretty little birds and I, on the second last seat, trying to hear every conversation that I’m not a part of.
There were kind advices suggesting me to take a nap but the sea was calling out to me a little too loudly.
A delay of 2 hours and 2 short conversations later, I was standing in front of the water. My eyes were as salty as the sea and I could not believe on my luck.


Mobor – Benaulim – Velsao

22 km trek along the coastline in two days with some 50 strangers and too many crabs. Our camping tents in a football stadium awaiting our arrival and to stay in for the night.
Goa was a dream came true. Too tangible, I could touch it. Too salty, I could taste it.

The sun shone in all its glory whenever I entered the water. The big vast goddess, breathing in and out, I was exhaling out laughter. I was twenty-one years old and picking up seashells like I would pick up dreams.

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The evenings were made up of a golden sky, leaving a glittery red in the sea. My newly found friends and I, our hearts pounding on Louis Fonsi’s track, And our toes- bare, unapologetic and unharmed. We were thanking every embrace of the sand that was sliding off our feet.



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Too many metaphors hushing a song. “The waves are roaring”, some would say, but I knew it was music. The sweet calling, the hum of the water, flowing, singing. A prayer worth recalling. Miles away from home, it still felt like a homecoming. In that night, Goa was all mine to behold, all mine to love. The sky was my shelter and the coastline was my gorgeous companion, dearer than a friend, lovelier than a lover.

But the candlelit shacks dancing slowly in jazz music reminded me of someone back at home. I wrote a love letter in my mind and threw it in the moonlit grace of the sea. “I’ll come back here again with someone I love more than I love you. You shall return this letter to me that evening.” I asked the Arabian sea quietly.2thumbnail (1)thumbnail (4)thumbnail


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Do I? I do!

I took a shower.
It was the bravest thing I ever did
after swallowing 5 kinds of fruit
and taste
Is permanent. The dew drops
always find their way back to the heavens
and the heart always find reasons
to not stay
is what you made me feel when you
held my wrists so gently
I thought it was the air whispering
a soft lullaby to my
have a funny way of remembering.
They can see through people
even in the dark, they collect stuff,
like memories and scars and
is something that I have held so dearly
that my chest never feels empty
even when I have nothing
to protect it with, I mean nothing but
is a privilege. I spit it out
in bits and pieces,
I have but little
of it left in
my stomach/
my stomach
is full of ghosts from the past
and I do not know what are they
doing to my taste buds,
look at all these fruits
and look at me unable to taste them,
I really don’t/
I really
mean to love someone like that,
but do I/
I do.




Perfume pouring out of the neck
Sunscreen melting with the sweat,
fingers like meat slicer, hair like dandelions,
every day is a war coming.
Between missed periods and gunshot silences.
Hey, you! Do you have a god?
I want to thank her for this city,
which every ounce of me hates,
but I always end up dancing on the streets in the music o the traffic
And I always end up dancing on the footpaths in the jazz jeopardy
of the winds,
I want to thank her for the wind
and the water,
chlorine-stung eyes would like to say Amen to this holy water,
this is the story of a certain someone tip-toeing between the timeless classics
someone crying with plum eyes
and laughing with a cherry mouth,
this is the story of a song stuck between too many boy bands.
this is me with a stained lip,
stained with dirty dreams and the trash I’ve kissed
wandering while wondering, what a lethal proposition!
collecting words and poems, filthy as can be
let the shoe get muddy, it’ll fit, you see
and let the wild unleash
run so fast that you trip and fall,
build a home inside,
love so loud that the hate comes crumbling
hurry! find someone else’s god,
I want to thank her
For not saving me.

Quiet young ocean

Unfound love and unkissed shorelines

I grew up to be a quiet young ocean

my chaos can engulf you whole

and my shimmer is stolen from the sky

as I sit silently wavering in my becoming.

I have stomached way too many shipwrecks

and the fishes in my belly are always hungry for more

I dream of swallowing the sun every evening

but I end up puking it out on every break of dawn

sunlight penetrates my skin and reaches out like old postcards,

the water in my womb is salt mostly

as I wait like any other quiet young ocean

for my universe to be discovered

for my galaxies to be seen

for my shorelines to be kissed by yet another sea.

Train to Banaras

I came here on a train that could not contain us. The aisle of which was witness to a lot many card games. The seats of which trembled at the sights of us gushing in during the night. The handrails of which that I grabbed on to with my sweaty palms as I stepped out.

There is something in the air of Banaras, it is salt mostly but there is a strange sweetness begging for acknowledgement. The beggars snore on the footpaths as if they have been here for more than one lifetime. There is no plan; no intellectual thought flooding into my mind, the people are walking as if they have no hurry of getting somewhere, or anywhere! Dirty trucks hold too many people, taxis hail through the streets like chariots into a battleship, I wonder if they are going towards Kurukshetra, I wonder if Lord Krishna is still leading.

One could almost taste the tea spice in the air of the lane-corners, where short men chew betel and the old wives fan the roasted corn sitting on bricks in the steamy August. I let a frail man pedal me on his bicycle rickshaw towards the Munshi Ghat. I am here to learn something. I wonder if I could ever master the art of crossing the streets in India.

The Ghat boasts of ancient stories, whoever named it after Munshi Premchand was a genius to be sure. The water is quiet but the place is not. The wind whispers through my hair gently like an old lover, I never knew solace you could be found in a place full of so many people. The architecture stands steadily like an old tale smiling in nostalgia. There are too many monkeys, not the most extraordinary fact but quite intriguing!

The river is bold enough to swallow the sun as the orange in the sky turns darker, I wonder if there is Henna in the clouds. I sit on the steps as the river glows in her dusky beauty. Too many souls trying to wash away their sins. I think of stepping into a boat but sit there in silence instead, watching it leave. There are innumerable metaphors in the water and the flecks of stars try hard to make us notice their existence. At a distance I see a Sadhu draped in Ochre robe chanting something auspicious as he dips his mud-coated, rope-like hair in the holy Ganga multiple times.

Peace of mind could be reached. All we need is to take a train that could not contain us.Uttar-Pradesh_Varanasi_Munshi-Ghat-at-Varanasi

Taking notes

The smoke softly enters my cotton dress,
My dirt-soaked attempt to feminity,
As I walk down the monotony of the street,
potholes? Enormous! pebbles? Stubborn as ever!
Paperboats? Missing.
I float through the river of begging hands and broken limbs,
heart breaking every time my empty pockets sneeze at the plaintive footpaths
As I bypass the wreckage – got a long day to start.
I catch a bus that is all too well versed in her routes,
Sweaty palms and oiled plaits, a common sight to behold
Grey hair dusting off endless memoirs,
I sit by the side of an old wrinkled story
Who is draped in yellow and smells like Vicks.
I jumped back on the road again
as the old wives fan the roasted corn
And I walk down to the train station
amidst the catcalls of a man who is double my age,
And whistling boys still in their school pants.
I do not stop to ask the man if he dyed his hair with henna or colour
And do not stop to tell the boys they resemble my younger brothers,
I somehow reach my office building
I do not really know how it looks like from the front,
I pass through plastic plants and shrink in myself
as I take the chair drenched in fluorescent lights – got a long day to start
and my mind is taking notes.


The question still hangs around my room
whenever your name echoes there

The butterflies in my stomach are quiet now

They don’t flutter anymore,

They don’t remember the first times,
nor do they crave for more.

The question still hangs and my lungs
are full of bad breath slurs

My eyes never search for you
but my fingers have yet not forgotten,

What I mean to say is the fire never escaped my heart
but it swallowed me whole

The burning marks reside on the skin I had yet to discover.

Maybe it was too soon

Or maybe it was too late

Maybe the Firefly had to learn
that she was meant to burn away.

You see, unrequited love is difficult

And I have been doing difficult for quite some time now,

You should have at least given me some credit

when you asked me for the saddest story ever

And I showed my unloved palms
with ‘I love you’ scribbled all over them.


Art work by Naved Warsi

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Dear Jon Snow

“Dear Jon Snow,
I like your hair. like forsaken rain drops they fall, like a broken pavement, they seem lost.
They wander, silly hair! They aspire! They carry secrets and tornadoes, they are a haven for a dire wolf’s cry.

Dear Jon Snow,
I know you have touched love. You have tasted it with your own tongue, inhaled it in, filled it in your lungs, tell me, wasn’t it like swallowing an entire ocean in one go? Like sipping on starlight and smoking out heartache over and over till your soul gives up on you?

Dear Jon Snow,
I know that you are a dragon. So I guess it’s safe to assume that I will fall in love with you. Your untamed wilderness and noble-born blood, your heart makes it up for all the void. Your soul breathes fire, I know your lips taste like gasoline, even in the snow. Especially in the snow, Jon Snow!

Dear Jon Snow,
I saw how you held your own heart in your arms when it froze. Crimson red, cherry stained lips, her vacant eyes, there were wolves howling in the whispers of your dishevelled hair when she was gone. Tell me, wasn’t it like slicing your own self into pieces? Like laughing on your own destruction yet waiting for a punchline?

Dear Jon Snow,
How did you survive? This cage that is not even yours, this neglect that is as cold as the winter cold heart, this life that is empty. How do you wake up in the burning, in the screaming silence of the blood-soaked nights? Tell me, does the pain still enters the parts that you lost away in your slumber?

Dear Jon Snow,
I know that you know nothing, but at least you know how it’s like to die, again and again.”82639965_game-of-thrones-season-2-jon-snow


It is monsoon
and I haven’t tasted any mangoes yet
they must be sweeter than ever
but I have been surviving on popsicles
this city is hot, I am water most of the times
but when the raindrops fall on my window
it seems as if the sky is falling in love with the wind,
my legs are aching, it must have something to do with my flying.
Lately, I have grown fangs
discreetly, I have been nurturing dandelions on my fingertips
I wept when the sky fell down one night
on the pavement, and the water was so sweet yet forsaken.
I have been walking a lot
the sunsets are a bliss but the potholes are enormous
I always wanted to live by the side of a river
and the corridors of my city are finally catching up with that.
The noise is deafening here
and the constellations are hiding in my bathroom mirror
I like how my hair does not smell like shampoo
I have given myself a haircut, people keep asking me why
I tell them it’s because I’m going North of the North
as I hide my fangs buried under curled tongue.
The sky last evening made me a grasshopper
I leapt and pranced as if I was barefoot and flying
and amidst the noise of our hearts beating louder than the city
in the memory of all the twilights we have been bleeding in
there was music in the distance and I had to stop and look back
the peace came flooding and the wind was stomping on my holy feet
the street was begging for acknowledgement
and I kept standing
taking my teeth back inside, giving the ache in my legs a rest
and the rain washed away the scarlet off my skin,
the street lamps were resisting the urge to dance
and so was I.
But I’m not saying that I hope and dream a little too much
for I’m only human
but as I kept standing there in the music
I said the word ‘Living’ over and over
until it became a poem with the word ‘Thank you’
in each and every line.
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Artwork by Preeti Pandya